Yesterday, was Carson’s dedication day at church. It was a great day and we had so many friends and family there with us as we dedicated Carson to the Lord. Ever since Carson was born I knew I wanted him to be apart of a baby dedication service. Baby dedication to us means that we as parents are publicly, before the church, promising to raise our son in the love and admonishment of our Lord and savior, Jesus Christ. In the Christian faith, we believe you are not saved until you profess Jesus as your lord and savior and call on him to be apart of your life. We know that dedicating Carson does not insure his salvation but rather a pledge to raise Carson up in the biblical truth. We hope and pray that Carson will one day accept Jesus into his heart and will be a light for him. Carson’s dedication yesterday was kind of an eye opener like “wow, we are really doing this!” God has entrusted us with this precious gift to help grow, nurture and love. What an amazing and overwhelming thought! Our prayer is that we will help lead Carson to walk with the Lord and that he will love the Lord with all his heart.We are so blessed to have such amazing family, friends, and church members that will come along side us as we raise our son. It was such a special day and one that we will always cherish as parents.
This wasn’t taken yesterday, but my sweet sis-in-law took it a couple weeks ago and I just had to share! He looks so grown up!
“Hear, O Israel, The Lord our God, the Lord is one. You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise.” Deuteronomy 6:4-7
I am making peace with my weaknesses. Recently, my pastor quoted this the other day in church and it really got me thinking. This is one of my biggest struggles. Perfection. I always feel the need to have everything perfect and to be perfect. I am constantly focused on the areas of my life that aren’t “perfect”. I am fixated on my weaknesses. In 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, it says “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties, For when I am weak, then I am strong.” Instead of dwelling on the things I’m not good at, I should be dwelling on the things I am good at and use those things to further the kingdom. God made us all different, we all have different passions, talents and spiritual gifts. That’s what makes the body one. God doesn’t want us to all be good at the same thing. Some are gifted with hospitality, some are not, and that’s ok! God made us that way. Sometimes I am trying so hard to make the weaknesses in my life better when I should be using my strengths. I am learning I don’t have to be good at everything. I don’t have to be ashamed of my failures or embarrassed because im not good at a certain something. That’s the way God made me and designed me to be. The body of Christ is there for the areas where I fall short. When we all use our gifts and talents to the fullest, instead of dwelling on our weakness, that is when we are fully living for Christ and furthering the kingdom. I need to invest my time and energy in what I do best. Instead of feeling exhausted by the end of the day from trying so hard to perfect my weak points, I need to look back and rejoice in the things I am good at and be thankful for those gifts.
“Life is not a ladder but a garden to enjoy” J. Yates
Lately, I have really been struggling with this. There are days were I wish Carson was in a different stage. I wish he wasn’t getting into stuff, teething, pulling up on furniture and then falling down, putting everything in his mouth, and the list goes on. It’s as though I view my life as a ladder and I’m always trying to get to the next “step”. Thinking the next stage will be easier or “I will be able to do this once he is at this age” but each stage brings on a new set of challenges. At times I feel drained and overwhelmed that I will never catch up with all the new changes. Sometimes I find myself wanting to go “down the ladder”, go back and fix the areas where I feel like I failed as a mom.
I need to learn to rest in the here and now. I need to stop wishing the time away and stop trying to take it back. I can’t change anything. The lord is so patient and gives us abundant grace. What would my life look like if I relied and lived out that truth every day? I long to enjoy the “garden” the lord has set before me. I want to fully rest in the present and stop looking behind or ahead. My sweet boy will only be this little once and even though some days are trying, I know one day when he is grown I’ll be wishing I could go back. So instead of trying to go up or down the ladder, I choose to enjoy the beauty and grace in the garden the lord has in front of me.